i am currently watching “Super Soul Sunday” on the OWN network. i am inspired. i am inspired just because.
absolutely no reason in sight but in heart. i am inspired to love. i am inspired to write. i am inspired to be free.
today on Super Soul Sunday the well known poet, Maya Angelou speaks. she speaks about God, she speaks about One, she speaks about All. She speaks about Spirit. i find myself on this spiritual journey to understand and learn my own true purpose in life.
i was told by my therapist that life is a “school”…a school of learning ..a school of connecting.. a school of being. i didn’t understand her true meaning but on this rainy Sunday morning ,I get it. i found myself going throughout life constantly resisting the inevitable which caused me to not really live in the moment…not really experience life and resist the desire to just “be” while using all 5 senses-touch,taste, see,hear,smell to enjoy.
meditation,writing,art and this spiritual journey are those things that is helping me stay grounded..helping me to be bold, fearless, let go, love, feel and be.
as i watch “Super Soul Sunday..this quote has struck that “aha moment” with me. for a while i have kept many parts of me deep down within myself: almost denying who i am. i now have an understanding that being open..being you regardless of all that it entails..is what is important. i now have made the choice to allow myself the permission to be vulnerable. i am not perfect. i find myself feeling scared. i am afraid of failure and at times success. i am an artist. i am the youngest of 5. i have random heart conversations with my deceased grandfather,Daniel. i dream this life of travel and art while meeting and loving amazing individuals. i feel pain. i feel joy. i feel hesitant. i feel life.
i play “roles” that’s expected of me: sister, daughter,friend, artist, african american woman, aunt, protector, provider, lover, giver, employee,etc. all i am is me…Amanda. i have learn that fighting what reality really is ..causes the most suffering.
i am willing and ready to be open…be expressive. share my needs,desires,wants.
i have learned that no one wants to be vulnerable because of fear. no one wants to let go of all inhibitions because of the fear of being judged. but at the end of the day all you have is self.
have you ever felt lost in the wide space of life? i have. i find myself on a constant search of who i am. i often ask myself who am i? since i have been meditating with inspiration from my vision board life seems to become more clearer. it is easy to go throughout life inspired by someone else’s dreams or perspective of you. i begun to feel unfulfilled once i realize my life was so predictable:breakfast,work, home, family,etc. i knew i needed a change and a glimpse of inspiration.
its been over a month and a half and when i look back at my vision board, which is filled with words such as “calm”, “inner vision”,”boldness”, “creativity”…i am starting to become those things. i am starting to create a life filled with peace, joy and understanding.
i believe life is a constant change . we are always evolving into the person we are meant to become. after sitting in the library and flipping through Oprah’s “O” magazine I was inspired by Xorin Balbes, author and designer of “Soul Space“. he mentions that “when you start living in an environment that’s more like you, then others can see more of you” . Have you ever wondered how your environment or space has a direct reflect of your mood and who you are as a person….either from your work,home and social space.
Here are a 8 steps to help recreate your space into the person you are.
First, step back and consider your home like a neutral observer. “The idea is to take an inventory to determine what’s in there that you love, and what’s just taking up space,” Balbes says. Questions to ask include: Which rooms make you feel most comfortable? Is there a room you never use? What’s the first thing you see when you wake up in the morning? When you walk through the door? Are there items in your home that no longer reflect who you are? What have you outgrown? Don’t make a to-do list yet; just note your strongest impressions, and keep an eye out for hidden inspiration. Says Balbes, “Often our deepest, truest style is represented by a single object in our homes—say, a piece of clothing or jewelry, or a picture.”
Now it’s time to cull. Balbes suggests the following guidelines for separating what to keep from what to sell, donate to charity, give to friends, recycle, or toss:
Let go of anything that…
Is collecting dust
“Garages, basements, and attics are full of items that should be released,” Balbes says. “Get rid of all that weight and set yourself free.”
Dredges up unpleasant emotions
Even if the item in question is valuable, if its provenance makes you feel crummy, it can’t stay. “If you have a chair that’s pretty but was an inheritance from a horrid old aunt who was always criticizing you,” Balbes says, “let it go. It’s an anchor to the past.” Likewise, don’t keep photos around if you don’t adore the people in them.
Doesn’t work anymore
If it’s damaged beyond repair, outdated enough to be useless, or worn out to the point of shabbiness, give it the heave-ho.
Out with scratchy blankets, chairs that are awkward to sit on, too-tight pants—anything that irritates rather than delights.
Keep anything that…
When evaluating what belongs in your home, Balbes sets the bar high: You must actually love it. And while this kind of emotional connection may seem possible only with things like fine art and keepsakes, he believes that even mundane objects (think spatulas and bath towels) should make you happy when you use them: “Everything you surround yourself with either lifts you up or brings you down.”
You’ve decided what will stay and what must go. Now break out the vacuum cleaner, the wood polish, the iron—and care for your home. Open your windows and let in the breeze. Replace lightbulbs. Rotate your mattress. Tend to necessary repairs. At the same time you’re literally cleaning your environment, Balbes says, you also want to clear out any emotional cobwebs. In rooms where you’ve experienced loss or pain, he recommends burning sage or sweetgrass, an energy cleansing technique favored by Native Americans. Balbes refers to this phase as “spring cleaning for the soul.”
You’ve released the past; this next phase is all about the future. Who are you now and who do you want to become? “Let yourself experience new things,” says Balbes. “Go to new restaurants, roam around new neighborhoods—it’s about getting inspired.” You might make a vision board, filling it not with standard-issue photos of mega-mansions but with images that make your spirit soar. Maybe you dream of sailing, or English gardens, or Bali. “You want to go into a very meditative mode of just flipping through magazines and tearing out things you feel a connection with,” Balbes says. “Don’t do it from a place of thinking.”
Now bring those dreams to life by finding the objects that express your true self. Look at catalogs. Browse flea markets. Surf websites like eBay, Craigslist, and Etsy. “I think people get stuck in routines and styles,” Balbes says. “It’s important to open up. Let your imagination lead the way.”
Your budget will dictate the scope of your improvements, but even minor changes can make a big difference. You might rearrange the furniture in your living room to make it more inviting for friends to drop by, or move your desk next to a window so it gets more natural light. Want to paint your bedroom sky blue? Hang a chandelier in the bathroom? Now’s the time. Expert opinions don’t matter here; this process, Balbes stresses, is about “you really making your home yours.”
Now for the finishing touches, or what Balbes calls grace notes. Often we don’t make the effort to add a vase of flowers in our favorite colors, turn on some music, and spritz the air with an appealing scent, yet it takes only a moment—and very little cash—to bring in these uplifting elements.
“For some people the soul space process might take years to fully express,” Balbes says. “But if you can even start it, you’re beginning to connect to your true essence.” It’s important to invite people over to share your home’s transformation, he notes, “because when you start living in an environment that’s more like you, then others can see more of you. And hopefully you’re inspiring them to become more of who they are, too.”